Random, but what I feel...

I sit at my computer, and motion my hand to the keys to paint my blank white canvas, and realize that I can't put my finger on what I want to say. You ever get that feeling like you want to say so much at once, that it makes you not want to say anything at all? As soon as you think of a topic, then a phrase, then a word, 7 variations of your words come to your mind, along with 3 more concepts to write about, not feeling like you want to say the same thing anymore, and you're back to square one? I get that quite often actually...there's a lot in this heart of mine, and I sometimes don't know just how to say it. Sometimes I even feel like I would give so much to be able to say EVERYTHING that's on my heart at a moment in time...just to be able to take a deep breath after and feel the relief...I guess it's a blessing and a curse. The ability to continuously pour out is a blessing, because it allows me to come up with the poetry that I do, at the drop of a dime, and it seems like people LOVE it! Then on the other hand, sometimes my thoughts seem to weigh me down. Last night, I had so much to say, but one thing I'm learning more everyday is that many of my thoughts are better off kept in my mind...As you can see, I still have alot to say...and sometimes I feel like many people wouldn't understand enough for me to reach out to them to say it...it would just be overkill...I guess we'll see what happens from here. If you read this, thank you. I appreciate the fact that you took the time to dive into my mind just a little with me...